I used to get myself into traps like that a lot, “I need to get that impossible achievement”, “I need to play only at the highest difficulty”, “I need to get 200% completion”.
At the end of the day video games are just toys, play them as you like and if you’re not enjoying it just do something else instead. After I realized that games are fun again.
This ghost achievement in particular is a very hard challenge run, the kind of thing you go for after you finished the game and want more with an extra twist, trying to force it on your first time playing is guaranteed to be frustrating