It is most definitely not an easy ride. I have had complete stranger come up to me in the street and lecture me about being thin. I wasn’t even underweight. I was normal for my height. Happened recently and I’m way heavier than I used to be and people STILL do it.
Could be something she does is burning energy and you haven’t figured out what.
I used to wonder why I never gained weight despite eating twice what other people did…I never thought to factor in being extremely active because it was normal for me. I didn’t think brutal martial arts classes or 5k runs counted as being ‘active’. I thought it was normal.
Granted I wasn’t underweight and didn’t need to gain but I really wanted to look like Zarya from Overwatch
IDK. Annihilation is not frightening. I will not be awake to experience it. The only frightening thing is that it’s hard to conceptualize not existing so you default to the nearest thing you can imagine which is a black void or being trapped in a coffin.