Yeah I already smoke weed and it makes me feel “normal” per say. But I only smoke it at work and I don’t really smoke outside of work in general because I either forget or just don’t want to. Honestly I think I should force myself to smoke more but for some reason I never do. As with the creative outlet… Uh yeah I need one badly. It’s a shame. That i’m literally bad at doing any creative work or having the will power to fully realize the worlds I create inside my head from time to time. I’m really really lazy. Granted I guess most of the things I would create would be extremely experimental at best or bad to play at large. In terms of games I would like to make.